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logging of from friendster :p
they were there since the second i woke up this morning, the sorrow, the loneliness, the strange feeling that you couldn’t explain where it came..
wanted to call my mom, but sent her an sms instead, just asking how things were in jakarta.. replied with a terrible news, my grandfather had just passed away and my mom and others on the way to airport to catch any plane to padang
so sad, the sorrowness then grew even more.. my grandma passed away last january, it’s only four months ago.. i knew that she had fell ill for more than a year, but i couldn’t find any reason why my grandfather died.. and then suddenly ben folds’ “the luckiest” song popped into my mind.. one part went like this:
“next door there’s an old man who lived through his nineties and one day passed away in his sleep, his wife she stayed for a couple of days and passed away”
one may interpret this as another version to tell the so-called ‘love that keeps us alive’.. it’s like you live with and for someone, and when that person died, you lose your reason to live.. you wouldn’t kill yourself, you just stop ‘living’ and die.. maybe it’s what happened with my grandparents.. and with positive mental attitude, i consider it as a very romantic thing to do.. and realizing this made me somewhat glad for them.. i’m also glad that my grand father had the chance to see my cousin’s wedding just last month– the only happy thing that happened after my grandma’s death.. maybe it was his intention to wait for the wedding.. hmmmm…
but no… that wasn’t my only sad thing i concerned..
i realized that i’m losing friends at an unacceptable rate, i familiar with the phrase “we lose friends along the way”, but damn.. this is a really small country! one can travel 30 minutes from edge to edge and i have not been that busy with work either..
so i guess it’s time for introspection, it must be something wrong with myself.. i know i have a lot of bad traits and can be so picky, i can’t and don’t want to cover if i don’t like or uncomfortable with certain people, making friends for me is a long process..
yes, i should change.. i think..
Ok it’s almost 2am and all i’m doing is writing this blog.. I should have start packing and rest for the trip to malaysia this morning.. But i just came home from a great day that i decided to write it down before it vapours away on my mind..
So? What happened today? Well, nothing much.. It’s just one of those day that everything went perfect, that’s all.. And it’s worth to remember.. When all small things happened without a reason and it made you happy.. As simple as that!
Morning i woke up late, had breakfast as always, and when i came down i held the lift for a lady, and then when i walked out from my flat block, they offered me a ride to MRT station.. Well, this has never happened before.. Well i never thought it would happen in a place like singapore.. Where stranger gave a ride to another stranger..
one good thing.. I didn’t came late to the office.. Another one good thing.. I have a nice neighbour i never knew before!
In the office i felt really productive.. The architect gave me difficult and important task for a really short time, but then i somehow wrapped it up.. When the other architects came and asked me if i can help them doing some things for other project, then the director went i must be assigned only to this project, which also i believe that it’s one of the most important and biggest project this company has..
one good thing i’m the only architectural assistant assigned to it that i can learn tonnes of new things.. Another good thing is they somewhat recognized me, and i need to keep up with all this really fast paced work..
Other thing happened was i signed up for the gym! Finally after months of undecisioning! (is undecisioning a word? :p) and it turned out to be great! I should have joined as early as january, when i first thought about it.. Hehe
Breda and I had a bit of chat and eventhough i was still busy working, we had a simple nice chat.. Which was not so often happened these last month.. And of course, it’s absolutely a good thing
After work i met up with donna, a good friend i know from IAF band, she should have bring me lonelyplanet i want to borrow, but she forgot and left it home, then we were going to a place we’d like to eat and it’s just closed, and no interesting movie to be watched unless after midnight.. And when things gonna get worse, she just suggest we went toward so-called “Mitre Hotel”, it’s an abandoned hotel building on Killiney Road, somewhere between orchard and Rivervalley, it’s a place where certain people hang-out…. And we went there
First i came there i amazed on how this building looks.. So old, so rustic, like all of its part almost coming down on you, it’s dark and spooky, like one of those most haunted building stuff.. But as we sat, some people came and there they are.. A couple from New Zealand, swedish siblings, a hot norwegian girl, an almost wasted girl that hardly speak clearly–i think she’s british or somewhere near, and a singaporean host that provide the guys the beers.. And we began to talk about everything.. A really really nice conversation, starting from politics, architecture, tattoo, to traveling and anything you could come up to..
after this 3 hour-long talk, i headed home.. I realized that it’s a big world out there.. And nice people like this is everywhere, there are many things to pursuit! And no, singapore isn’t the destination, it’s not even close! It’s a ticket or door to come out to the world.. A step i need to start to leap..
yes.. This is why i wrote this post to myself.. That day like today must be keep in mind, a perfect day..
Ok for me, this was a very interesting and toughtful theory i just heard last night.. And here was what happened..
Yesterday i took a friend of my friend didin, nisa, for sight-seeing around harbour and marina area because this morning she had a flight home to jakarta so she wanted to use most of her time here.. She called a guy she knows, indra bacol, who’s been studying here for quite a while.. And as he showed up and we were wandering around and talk, ofcourse we talked about our friends and realized the connections we had before we actually met and began to know each other..
so my connection with nisa before i met her:
i know didin, didin was nisa flatmate in bandung.. (me-didin-nisa: Third degree)
Nisa went to the same school with my ex.. I know my ex.. (me-my ex-nisa: Another third degree)
nisa knows my friends who took same study.. (Many more third degrees)
and connection with indra bacol:
i know didin, didin’s ex flatmate was nisa’s sister, nisa’s sister’s friend was bacol’s ex..(me-didin-nisa’s sister-bacol’s ex-bacol: So there was five degree!)
But then, i realized that bacol and i went to the same highschool, so many of my friends he know.. (This shorten us into third degree)
and as time went by, we encountered many of new connections, which then made us wondering, how small, yes how small, our world is because we inter-connected in many ways.. Then bacol stated this theory about all people in the normal world connected at least within their six degree.. Then i went, how can i connect with Saddam Husein? (Saddam was premature sample of i would have thought to be the most impossible connection)
so he went like, his father knows indo’s president SBY, SBY knows president of Iraq, and this president must have know Saddam! There’s six degree! Now there would be more chance of shorten the connection, like maybe i know someone who knows president of Iraq, or perhaps SBY knew Saddam personally.. but I wasn’t so enthusiastic to find out my connection with one of the worst dictator in the world, so i qucikly accepted the theory of maximum six-degree connection!
well, maybe this theory won’t be such an important or helpful fact in my life, but i’m quite happy to realized that i’m probably within six-degree connection with ben folds, those guys in the killers, incubus or franz ferdinand, stephen spielberg, or any other celebs.. Maybe i also connected with a girl in a nomadic herd in mongolian mountains, or an art-performer in theater in Rome, or even a striptease dancer in NYC or a serial killer in britain..
Those facts are quite overwhelming at first, aren’t they? Well, it’s just helped me to realized that world that we’re live in wasn’t big at all, and humans are nothing but a big community, regarding their races, religions, nations, genders, or any phisical differences.. Wow.. I wish more people would realized that, and hopefully there will be no more stupid wars among us..
yes, six-degree world! This would help me to enjoy movies like BABEL or ‘my date with DREW’.. And now i’m starting to wonder if it has something to do with the show ‘lonely planet six degree’ that i like but never know what’s the meaning of the title.. Anyone wants to confirm or explain about this? 
cheers
yes finally!! one HOT STUFF that definitely gonna be THE HOTTEST STUFF of this year! it’s been a while since i’ve wondered, iPod mp3, mp4 video, tv.. the next thing should be a phone! and now i see that apple is in the right track!
this phone would have everything that good design can offers.. and look out for the attached cool stuff that they bring along with it! too much to explain, keep your eyes on US apple website here
i want it! i want it! i want it!
and yes, this is a double blog! i would like to talk about other thing that also happening
ok i fell in love with this lady.. she sang so damn good, she’s a classic, love every of her songs, she’s the famous "lady of songs", ella fitzgerald! and a couple of days ago, they released her stamp! here’s one of the news article mentioning about this event! and here is much better explaination about the stamp from the US post!
i want her! i want her! i want her!
Ok here’s the good news.. Today my colleague showed me an artikel in newspaper about a budget malaysian airline secured flight route contract from Kuala Lumpur to UK, and will secure some more european cities pretty soon! I scanned and post the news and i realized from Breda and Barbara that the similar news also spread today is Slovenia.. So i guess, it’s like some kind of history on the making..
The malaysian airline (you know, the red one with always hot stewardess aboard) mentioned that this cheap flight would be as much as RM 500 for return flights! OK, this is not more than one fifth regular economy flight tickets i know.. They will begin this route on july.. So keep your finger crossed! And for my friends on whole europe, watch out who’d knock on your doors on your lazy summer days!
i’m so excited!
Do you commute? Are you usually bored riding a train or bus for so long every morning?
Well.. Have you ever try to close your eyes and listen? Just listen to all the voices near you.. Take off that earphone from your mp3 player, close your eyes and listen to things..
This morning when i took MRT, i managed to find a seat and did this.. Ok honestly, first i didn’t want to share my precious seat if any old lady come aboard, so i pretended To sleep :p yeah i know that’s bad.. But ah come on, you did this sometimes too, didn’t you?
When i closed my eyes i only hear quiteness, train wheels running accross the track and nice lady voice that telling you where the next stop would be and to mind the platform gap between the train and the concourse.. But then i began to hear some people writing sms on their cellphone, which sometimes rang with those funny annoying ringtones.. Later i began to hear people small movements.. Not just that.. In some level, your nose started to smell their aftershave and deodorants, or you might had bad luck that you able to smell what the person next to you had for breakfast! Ha!
so it’s true that when you shut one of your sense, the other sense would become stronger.. Yeah i remembered this feeling when i came to an exhibition in Leipzig years ago.. It was created by blind community to ‘promote’ to people who has better eye sight on how it would be if you become blind.. So terrifying! I went inside this show case which had no light at all! I mean literally dark! You cannot even see your own nose! Luckily, i got a blind guide and a long stick to orientated my way accross all dummy environments on the show case, such as park, street and zoo.. We wrapped up the tour in the bar (still without light) where i managed to order and make coffee while giving all my coins to the bartender because hell! I couldn’t see if it’s 10 cents or 2 euro!?! Well, he did give some change, but then again.. How the hell i know!?? Yes yes.. I trust the guy
ok, i hope you will never ever lose your eye sight! But i do suggest to try closing your eyes and let the other sense take control (eg. best time is while commute).. But be careful, you don’t wanna miss your stop!
counting hours to new year.. there’s nothing better than to re-open my long last deserted blog and trying to figure out my upcoming year resolution! yes..
hmmm.. what should i take… well, at least i kinda glad that i fulfilled this year’s resolution, which was to buy my own DSLR camera, early on the february! well done!
ok.. 1. visiting slovenia would be my most eligible candidate for new year’s resolution.. hmm what else? 2. save money? yeah right! think i’ll spend it on the trip! 3. to decide to be an architect or not? yeah it should be a shot on the resolution list! 4. knowing what, where and apply for study would be a tremendeous achievement next year (even if i won’t be enrolled or get a scholarship, at least i’d take my step out from here)
can’t decide! can not ah? tell you what, might pack all one mah.. think possible lah! can?
you live… you learn…
you love… you learn…
you cry… you learn…
you lose… you learn…
you bleed… you learn…
you scream.. you learn…
-Alanis Morissette
well, those words mean a lot to me these days… when i could grieve on one time but feel so much joy on another, when i find many things which i never thought before and also feel many things which i never felt before…
i found out that love is something to share, in other words, to share something… either to your friends, families or to those special persons… and don’t expect something in return, because when you share you’ll get what you give and what you deserve… be honest with your feeling… and if you decided to love someone so deep, expect nothing but heartache, but when the magic happens, eventually you’ll get what you had share… because sharing is not simply a one-way interaction, thus a mutual thing…
share you thoughts, love and dreams with anyone
yes…
so what’s wrong with the constellation? is Mars too damn close to the earth? why does i heard more and more news either about relationship-break-up or couples getting married? is now love has to be black or white? and those shades of gray has to become one of the two?
blame it on the planet! this is a strange time for every one of us… be strong!
(well, i’m not actually blame the constellation, just want to make it more poetic! :P)
